Five People You Meet in Heaven

Surely we have all heard of the book "Five People you Meet in Heaven" by Mitch Album. Although I have never read it, I would like to think a bit on who I would like to meet when I get to heaven.

1. First, and foremost, I want to meet the Lord. I want to hug him and feel his warmth. I want to rest in his peace and tell him thank you for my salvation.

2. My mother's father, Pawpaw. I want to tell him all that I have heard about him and let him know how much I enjoyed the family farm when I was growing up. I want to sit and talk with him about how great his kids were and how highly they spoke of him.

3. Adolf Hitler. I want to ask him why, WHY would he not even lead, but allow such carnage and destruction in Germany. I want to know what enjoyment he got out of his tyranny and if he feels sorry at all for his actions and horrific leadership.

4. Emily Dickinson. I want to tell her how famous and moving her poetry became and how important it was in my life. I want to learn from her and ask her if there were any thoughts she never had the chance to write down on paper.

5. Vincent van Gogh. I want to explain to him how I came to know his beautiful artwork and why it was so important to me. I want him to recall what his feelings and emotions were when creating such creative and moving work. I want to explain to him how absolutely elated I was everytime I had the chance to view an original of his work.


There you have it, when I finally go home, these are the folks I would like to sit a spell with and chat it up.

"So.....do you think I'm a bitch?"

Let me begin by saying, I yell.....a lot.

I'm the girl who doesn't mind telling the server that the meal tastes like crap. (if it really does, I don't lie to get free food or anything)

I'm the girl who doesn't mind flipping off a crazy driver.

I'm the girl who doesn't mind telling someone I don't really care what they are talking about, provided the fact I really don't.

I was talking to Jordan the other day and I found myself asking him, "Honey, do you think I'm a bitch?" Much to my surprise, he replied, "Well.....not to me."

Good deal. At least I'm not too mean to him.

I think I'm great! I would never want to hurt someone's feelings or make them feel bad, but I don't let people walk all over me. I'm definitely not passive. People always know where I stand, and I don't back down. There have been too many instances in my life when people told me what I can do, when I can do it, what I should think, and how I should act.

I can truly say that I love Jordan with all my heart because he knows me at my best.......and worst. He knows I yell a lot, he knows I clean constantly, he knows I throw the remote control when my DVR malfunctions, and he knows I love him dearly.

That is really all that matters right? I love Hunny. (and he hates when I refer to him like that) =0)

Banned Books

When searching for books to read in Hastings on Thursday night I internally revisited my most academic abhoration....banned books. I despise them.

Why, for goodness sake, would any school ban a book? Books are amazing. They have the ability to send one into an imaginative world that is new and exciting.

My favorite book? Catcher in the Rye. Oh, how I love it.

Simple minded adminstrators dislike this book because of the language. Seriously? This is what the whole book is about! Holden Caufield loathed "phonies," this book was the basis for John Lennon's death.

Lennon wrote about revolution and change while living in the Dakota Apartments, some of the most expensive, in New York City. Don't get me wrong, I love his music, but he was a phony.

In conclusion, all you high school teachers out there, fight the power. Teach a banned book. The administration will get over it don't you think? Maybe not.

If a book is banned, the students will never know the real value of it.
Don't be a phony.

The Holidays

Well, Thanksgiving was great!!

Jordan and I went to his parents on Wednesday night and had Thanksgiving dinner with his parents and brother the next day. I had the pleasure of meeting Martha's side of the family.....lets just say I'm pretty sure it won't be so awkard next time we have an impromptu encounter.

Then we went to see my Daddy! Yay! Oh, how I love him. We hung out, and dinner, watched TV, ate pie, watched a movie, then went to bed. My perfect evening. Food. TV. Pie. Movie. Bed. =0)

We came home on Friday so I could get some homework done. Of course, I wrote one 2 page paper and quit. Now, here I am at 1:28 in the morning just finishing up my first project. I need to get it together.

But first, I need sleep!

Today I....

Slept in.

Had lunch with Morgan.

Got my nails done.

Met with Lori for homework.

Went to Walmart for groceries.

Started laundry.

Homework.

More laundry.

Walked Trevor.

More homework.


Oh.......I want Jordan to come home so badly. This weekend is lasting forever.

Next time I am ditching homework to go with him.

I Love NY

I have been feeling rather nostalgic about New York City lately. I know, random thought right? Oh, I miss it so. The honking of horns, the people, the skyscrapers, and the parks.

I cry when I have to leave. If I could have Jordan and my amazing job in New York I would be in heaven. The last time I visited (in June) I despised going to my hotel room. In the event of a shower or a couple of hours of sleep, I would sit by the window of my 14th floor hotel room, literally put my hands to the window, and feel the energy. Who wouldn't want to live in a place like this?





I love walking through Central Park and hearing jazz bands. I love to walk down the street and see a Starbucks and fruit stand on every corner. Every one eats healty in New York. Walking is a must, and, despite the common idea, the subway is lots of fun!




Oh I miss it so.

When I Graduate

I get so dang tired of the question, "so what are you gonna do when you graduate!?" I feel like people want me to tell them I am going to be a marveous educator or cure cancer. Sorry folks....I hate to disappoint you but I already have a job I love...and I'm stickin' with it.

Because I need something to come up with when they ask me, I have decided to compile a list.

1. Read. And not take a quiz over it the next day.

2. Learn to cook food people can actually eat.

3. Work 8-5. No more scheduling around my classes.

4. Have a weekend to myself. No papers to write or articles to analyze.

5. Plan my wedding.

Unfortunately there are only 5 items on my list. You would think that after 5 1/2 years of school I would know what I want to do when I get out.

Too bad....I wanna relax.

=0)

Fleas

So, I am fighting an uphill battle with fleas on Trevor. (not me, just to be clear) I have done everything, EVERYTHING I tell you, to get rid of them. I don't know why they hang around. Tomorrow I have the day off of work and I am taking EXTREME measures. It will be flea bath, Adam's Flea and Tick Spray and lysol central in my apartment. Anyone is welcome to join the party. =0)

Poor Trevor. Maybe after tomorrow he will be allowed on the furniture and bed again....just maybe.

Friday

Ahhh......Friday.

No classes to attend.

No work to worry about.

Knowing I can sleep in on Saturday.

Staying up late knowing I won't feel the consequences of it the next day.

Sitting on the couch catching up on my missed TV shows from the week.



Man, I love Fridays.

"We're A Team"

The other night Jordan and I went out to eat in Abilene for my birthday. (Lots of fun!) By the time our ticket came around I already had my debit card out and was ready to pay. Jordan gave me that "I'm going to pay for it" look and said, "Um, no. I'm paying for this one"

I, of course, rolled my eyes at him, handed the red-haired woman my card and said, "You don't always have to pay for it, Honey. We're a team now."

As minut and corny this may seem, it really meant a lot to me. It struck me that it is actually happening. I am getting married. Scary! For the rest of my life I am going to pick up after someone else, cook dinner for someone else, wash laundry for someone else and constantly worry about someone else. Am I really ready for that??? Absolutely. I am ready to have someone setting the table for me when I am cooking dinner, someone to talk to when I come home, someone to help me tuck the kids into bed after a long day, and someone to lay and bed for hours and giggle the night away with.

Ahhh.....I'm ready, I found my team.

So Many Things....

seem to be going on right now! Yet, when someone calls that I haven't spoken with in a while I just say, "oh, not a whole lot, just work and school." Seriously? I feel like I have been run ragged and all I can say is "oh not a whole lot????" I really need to get it together.

On a more positive note...I found my amazing wedding dress on Saturday! It was great. My mother, Claire and Jordan's mother came and my Aunt Guyla surprised me there! We looked and looked for the perfect one, and finally found it. It was a lonely little dress on a mannequin at the front. Aunt Guyla saw it and said, "why don't you try this one??" I was somewhat against it at first and basically tried on the dress because she wanted me to. I loved it!! As of now, I will be the most beautiful lady in the Methodist church on June 13th. Yay! =0)

I have to go back to the doctor on Monday...AGAIN. I'll tell you what, if I never had to see a doctor ever again it would be too soon. It gets so tiring to go all the way to Ft. Worth to see the doctor for about an hour, only to drive all the way home again. On the other hand, I get so caught up in being mad about driving 4 hours that I forget to be grateful for the wonderful doctor I have found. It was about this time last year that I was fed up with looking for a competent doctor that fit my needs. Now I have one! Maybe I should shut up with the belly aching about driving so far. At least I can walk up stairs and brush my own teeth.....a lot more than I could say this time last year. =0)

I'm a lucky gal.....

This Morning...

I took Gabby to church with me. She is soooo cute sometimes.

First off she got in the car, looked right at me and said, "why are you so mad this morning?" I replied that I wasn't mad...just tired. She insisted that I must have stayed out too late last night because otherwise I wouldn't be so tired. Thats right Gabby......a full time job, school and homework aren't enough to make me tired during the week and sleeping in one day a week will definitely catch me up on sleep. I wanted to roll my eyes but knew she would see me and slap them right out of my head.

I looked over at her this morning in church, when she was only a few seconds away from falling fast asleep, and thought of how wonderful it would be to live as long as she has and still remember just about every memory of my 91 year old life. She is so amazing, she can still cook a mean pot of potato soup and a banana nut bread to die for. All the while she complains about not being able to "see a lick" or hear just about anything.

So funny......

My Life.....

is pretty much a big ball of perfection right now. Although I hit a few bumps in the road every now and then, I basically have it made.

Sometimes I forget to give thanks and notice how blessed I am from day to day. If there was one thing I would change about myself it would probably be that....I want to remember to give thanks for my blessings every day.

What more could I ask for? I have a wonderful job that I would not give up for the world. I work with people who give me recognition for my accomplishments and cheer me on all the way when they realize I am working hard.

My family tends to be a bit nuts sometimes but, for the most part, we stick together in order to help each other through the hard times. Its what matters most.

Finally.....Jordan. Oh, my Jordan. God sent him to me at precisely the right time. I was just about at my wits end with things not working out and basically fed up with jerks who wouldn't know how to treat a woman right if it slapped them. It is so comforting to know that someone will always be there for me for the rest of my life....no matter what. No matter how many times I yell, no matter how many times I kick the dog, no matter how mean I am in the morning. We loves one another. I can't get enough of him!!!

Now we are off to get coffee!!

Stress.....

is starting to get to me. I'm tired all the time and I catch myself snapping at people for no particular reason (mostly Jordan). =0( I gotta stop that. I just love him to pieces and don't want to take anything out on him.

We are getting our engagement pictures back today!! Yay! We are super excited to see them. We only took them this last Saturday and it feels like we have waited forever for them. I can't wait to see how they turned out. It's gonna be great! =0)

I am kind of in a weird place with school right now. Part of me says it is super hard and I don't know how I am going to get through it. The other part of me is relaxed and taking it in stride. I don't want to get too relaxed about it because then I stand a chance of failing. At the same time I don't want to over stress about it because I tend to shut down and do nothing when I over stress. I don't know....I guess I will figure it all out sometime. I just have to keep telling myself....only 3 more months....I've come too far to quit now.

Here We Go

Ok, so here I am. I'm blogging.

I figured this would be a good creative outlet, a way to relax my brain.....or something like that. =0)

Many exciting things are going on in my life and I believe it is only fair for everyone to be in the loop. Stay tuned for more info on my graduation, my ever-changing family, and most importantly.....my wedding!!